Undiscovered Territory

“Funny how when you leave a place the things you miss most are the things you never even noticed. I had to go digging into DaVinci books at the Mount Horeb Library to find mountains to draw, which created a kind of EKG map for Tony of his mental landscape.”
~Bradley

“For three years, every day was a new challenge. We didn’t know what we were facing so we lurched forward into the unknown.”
~ Peggy

Dream of Spring

“Tony forgetting to forget, but it agitated him because he still knew something was forgot.”
~Bradley

“Tony loved our gardens. When he was healthy we would walk through them and enjoy the beauty and the growth every evening. At the end we brought flowers in so that he could have his final spring”
~ Peggy

In the Clinch

“At times, it seemed as if something had grabbed his brain and wouldn’t let go. Tony was in quite a struggle with an unknown opponent. He was constantly wrestling with it… sometimes winning but ultimately losing”
~Peggy

It’s Rediculous!

”When I asked him about the (slowly degrading) self -aware nature of his disease, he expressed his frustration thusly… It’s Rediculous!”
~Bradley

“Nothing about this whole issue made any sense to him… he understood what was happening but it just didn’t compute… it was rediculous.”
~Peggy

Blue Wave

“ Tony on a boat in Florida, thinking science-type thoughts.”
~Bradley

“Tony loved the water. Together we sailed, snorkeled, cruised and became divers. It was one very important thing that bonded him with my family.“
~Peggy

Puzzled

“Life is a puzzle when you are missing some pieces.”
~Bradley

“Tony loved Dinosaurs, reading every book he could find and watching every documentary that featured them. As a child, he even corrected a guide at the Field Museum in Chicago who misnamed a reconstructed skeleton.”
~ Peggy

Nobody’s Perfect

“Tony struggled with self-recriminition.”
~Bradley

“Tony felt guilty about doing this to me. How could I explain to him that it wasn’t his fault? He wanted me to place him in a facility so I would be free of his burden. How could I explain to him that I married him in sickness and health and I keep my promises?”
~ Peggy

Mental Climbing

“What if your mind was an island which eroded with the tides?”
~Bradley

“There were so many fears. So many that we felt that we must never stop or we would fall back and have to start again.”
~Peggy

Brain on Drugs

“Echos of echos of Gods Exhausted wanderer collapses on a dry beach salt crystals piercing his toes”
~Bradley

In the last days, Tony was prescribed morphine to ease his way to the next stop. Who knows what he felt, saw or thought…we certainly didn’t. I hope it was a good trip.
~Peggy

Earth to Tony

“He was an unwilling participant in a larger story, both broadcaster and consumer of his own fictional narratives.”
~Bradley

“He moved farther and farther away from us until we were lightyears apart, trying to maintain a line of communication but never sure that the transmissions were getting through.”
~ Peggy